Depressed?

I turned 35 today. I don't know what I feel, if I live to 70, I lived half of my life already.

My trading went completely south for a week and even my paper trades are all going wrong. Suddenly all my rules don't work any more.

Luckily Yee is still 100% supportive of me. No matter what I do. She always reminds me that we don't know when will we go back to see our heavenly father and we should just enjoy every day.

I suppose that is very true. I need to forget about everything and let me mind on vacation for a few days.

Thank you God for letting me marrying this woman.