8 weeks came and gone. It has been very interesting. First I made a fortune and lost all my profits. Second I know that there are people in the Western world actually lives life with very minimum of luxary that we enjoy in the U.S.
I made friends and found out more about myself.
People with different backgrounds are always interesting to meet, but not everyone with interesting backgrounds are interesting to me. Guys are well read, not so nerdy are fun to talk. Guys knows theirs history are cool. Guys "talk rubbish" like teenagers are fun too.
About myself, I found that I really want to have a better life. I found out also that I can't get to anywhere without together with my wife. and my son, basically my family. I need their support to go on.
I found out also that how much I would enjoy work if it with cool people.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Monday, September 17, 2007
Redepmtion
This is the title of Iowa State Daily article after this year's ISU vs UI game. ISU kicker Bret Culbertson missed a filed goal in 2004 that cost ISU the Big 12 North Champ. And he missed again! in 2005 Big 12 North Championship game. I was surprised to see him back in 2006 as the kicker but he does not give up.
To many Cyclones beating University of Iowa is much bigger than beating anyone else. Because we have been the underdog, because we got beat so much during my time there. Because also we can't spend as much as the UofI program. Thanks to the vision for the new athletic director, we are one step closer to be nationally recognized.
I am very energized after this. My Alma Mater made another strike. This is going to be a happy year:1) Celtics acquired Kevin Garret.
2) ISU beat UI in the last second field goal.
3) David Webb (aka Jason Bourne) has the same birthday as mine.
Hopefully everything will turn out great as well.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
I am a Great Trader (x3), and a Darn Good Looking One too
The root cause of my problem is that I have not been able to take my mind off of my frustrations and off of my efforts to get out of my current job.
To ease my mind off my troubles, it is nothing better than entering a dream, a men created dream directly from the dream factory, Hollywood. So I caught the "Bourne Ultimatum" Friday, knowing the plot is simple and knowing the hero will sure win. I need to be vindicated. The movie was great, and the hero had the same birthday as mind. I take it as a sign. :)
I need to fill my spiritual voids, I need to go back to Jesus. I need to relax my mind off my worries and my ambitions regularly.
I found out this weekend that going to Sunday service and sing with a large crowd is really exhilaration. I found out also that it refreshes my mind.
Two late mornings and two afternoon naps, I feel more refresh than ever. But I know Yee is in Dallas doing a double duty.
My head is still spinning from all of my losses and my blunders, however my confidence is very high that I can make those back like I did and I will make a lot more. Because "I am a great trader and a darn good looking one too."
To ease my mind off my troubles, it is nothing better than entering a dream, a men created dream directly from the dream factory, Hollywood. So I caught the "Bourne Ultimatum" Friday, knowing the plot is simple and knowing the hero will sure win. I need to be vindicated. The movie was great, and the hero had the same birthday as mind. I take it as a sign. :)
I need to fill my spiritual voids, I need to go back to Jesus. I need to relax my mind off my worries and my ambitions regularly.
I found out this weekend that going to Sunday service and sing with a large crowd is really exhilaration. I found out also that it refreshes my mind.
Two late mornings and two afternoon naps, I feel more refresh than ever. But I know Yee is in Dallas doing a double duty.
My head is still spinning from all of my losses and my blunders, however my confidence is very high that I can make those back like I did and I will make a lot more. Because "I am a great trader and a darn good looking one too."
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Depressed?
I turned 35 today. I don't know what I feel, if I live to 70, I lived half of my life already.
My trading went completely south for a week and even my paper trades are all going wrong. Suddenly all my rules don't work any more.
Luckily Yee is still 100% supportive of me. No matter what I do. She always reminds me that we don't know when will we go back to see our heavenly father and we should just enjoy every day.
I suppose that is very true. I need to forget about everything and let me mind on vacation for a few days.
Thank you God for letting me marrying this woman.
My trading went completely south for a week and even my paper trades are all going wrong. Suddenly all my rules don't work any more.
Luckily Yee is still 100% supportive of me. No matter what I do. She always reminds me that we don't know when will we go back to see our heavenly father and we should just enjoy every day.
I suppose that is very true. I need to forget about everything and let me mind on vacation for a few days.
Thank you God for letting me marrying this woman.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Confused
I just don't know how I entered this down trend, but I did. My buy and selling mechanics are all wrong and I lost all of my profit made in the last month.
My 1 year plan of quitting this job is now on hold. I need to find another way to make profit consistently. I am blowing up my paper trade account now to look for a way now.
Maybe it is because my family has gone back to Dallas. Oh I miss them a lot. Seeing the photos when Markkus was young, he is just so cute.
Yee told me he likes the new school, I hope it works out for all of us. The old schools had made him rather restless and violent.
These few months, I have been putting my self under a lot of pressure to make money off the stock market. Maybe I need to relax and not watch the balance of my account every minute.
I am thankful that Yee always support me. It is better to pay 24 grand to Investools than pay 70 grand to UT for an MBA. I am pretty sure some day I can bring a comfortable life to my family.
My 1 year plan of quitting this job is now on hold. I need to find another way to make profit consistently. I am blowing up my paper trade account now to look for a way now.
Maybe it is because my family has gone back to Dallas. Oh I miss them a lot. Seeing the photos when Markkus was young, he is just so cute.
Yee told me he likes the new school, I hope it works out for all of us. The old schools had made him rather restless and violent.
These few months, I have been putting my self under a lot of pressure to make money off the stock market. Maybe I need to relax and not watch the balance of my account every minute.
I am thankful that Yee always support me. It is better to pay 24 grand to Investools than pay 70 grand to UT for an MBA. I am pretty sure some day I can bring a comfortable life to my family.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Bummer!
During my RUT days, a volatile day like today is wonderful. I could have make good money on this.
Things went pretty wrong went I did not have my rules established. All of my S&P futures trades initially showing profits but then turned pretty red. For me personally, I always willing to take losses, but taking losses every time caused me dearly.
Before I have setup a sound rule to trade futures, I need to go back and trade RUT for my daily bread. Until my rules are good for the futures, I will enter that arena again.
Things went pretty wrong went I did not have my rules established. All of my S&P futures trades initially showing profits but then turned pretty red. For me personally, I always willing to take losses, but taking losses every time caused me dearly.
Before I have setup a sound rule to trade futures, I need to go back and trade RUT for my daily bread. Until my rules are good for the futures, I will enter that arena again.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Like bus, like train, like airplane
Yee and Markkus left Holland today. I am all alone again. There are so many interesting pieces.
Morning Call:
My alarm went off at 3:30 am but I have been awake since 2:50 am, when Markkus cried from his dreams and Yee and I both could not sleep again. The taxi arrived promptly at 4:30 am and we all got into that Mercedes E-Class within 5 minutes. I slept most of the way but Markkus was awake because he did not have his towel.
We arrived at the airport 5:55 am. It was a wonderful ride. I would definitely do it again. The taxi driver is very sleepy too, so we thanked him an went on our ways.
Prosperity
Airport is a place where everyone seems to go somewhere on their own group. People go there, quickly do their business and be on their way. It is always very cruel and clam. There was no incidence for Yee and M's check-in's but the guy on the next counter was trying to get his boarding pass with only a company ID. I believe he was British and very upset. It is his own fault, because there is no airline will give out boarding pass without an official government issued ID.
I stayed until NW 39 disappeared in the sky. It was 8:10 am.
Revenge
The train system in the Netherlands is very sophisticated, in order words very complex. There are 10's of train ticket vending machines in the Amsterdam Schiphol (shit-hole) airport but none of them take paper money (bills). I always prefer buying tickets from machines than buying from human because the line is shorter. But I never have the fortune to buy one from the machine, until today I had 20 Euros of coins and successfully got a train ticket there.
Well, a lot of tourists are lost in this complex train system. I helped a girl to buy ticket and I helped another group of Malaysians to leave the train at Schiphol.
Grand Palace
We were amazed we when visited GrandPalace (Schouwburgplein 54, 3012 CL, Rotterdam) to see the variety of dim sum and Chinese dishes this place serves. Today I visited it second time in 3 days, but alone. I order a rise item served in a pot and 2 dim sums. It was ok, but the service varies depending on the waiter. I was very impressed by their speed. They go in and out of the corridor to grab dishes and delivery to the customer.
I have planned to have sweet and sour pork today, but ended up with dim sums. They were ok, except for the fact that I was really really tired.
I got onto the train and slept all the way from Rotterdam Centraal to Dordrecht. Then got off a Breda. It was very quiet, without Markkus and Yee, everything just seem less colorful.
Morning Call:
My alarm went off at 3:30 am but I have been awake since 2:50 am, when Markkus cried from his dreams and Yee and I both could not sleep again. The taxi arrived promptly at 4:30 am and we all got into that Mercedes E-Class within 5 minutes. I slept most of the way but Markkus was awake because he did not have his towel.
We arrived at the airport 5:55 am. It was a wonderful ride. I would definitely do it again. The taxi driver is very sleepy too, so we thanked him an went on our ways.
Prosperity
Airport is a place where everyone seems to go somewhere on their own group. People go there, quickly do their business and be on their way. It is always very cruel and clam. There was no incidence for Yee and M's check-in's but the guy on the next counter was trying to get his boarding pass with only a company ID. I believe he was British and very upset. It is his own fault, because there is no airline will give out boarding pass without an official government issued ID.
I stayed until NW 39 disappeared in the sky. It was 8:10 am.
Revenge
The train system in the Netherlands is very sophisticated, in order words very complex. There are 10's of train ticket vending machines in the Amsterdam Schiphol (shit-hole) airport but none of them take paper money (bills). I always prefer buying tickets from machines than buying from human because the line is shorter. But I never have the fortune to buy one from the machine, until today I had 20 Euros of coins and successfully got a train ticket there.
Well, a lot of tourists are lost in this complex train system. I helped a girl to buy ticket and I helped another group of Malaysians to leave the train at Schiphol.
Grand Palace
We were amazed we when visited GrandPalace (Schouwburgplein 54, 3012 CL, Rotterdam) to see the variety of dim sum and Chinese dishes this place serves. Today I visited it second time in 3 days, but alone. I order a rise item served in a pot and 2 dim sums. It was ok, but the service varies depending on the waiter. I was very impressed by their speed. They go in and out of the corridor to grab dishes and delivery to the customer.
I have planned to have sweet and sour pork today, but ended up with dim sums. They were ok, except for the fact that I was really really tired.
I got onto the train and slept all the way from Rotterdam Centraal to Dordrecht. Then got off a Breda. It was very quiet, without Markkus and Yee, everything just seem less colorful.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
A man's word
A friend of mine, Lee from Cambodian told me once that a man's promise is like the tusks of en elephants. Well I promised my wife not to trade this week. But I discovered the wonders of E-mini Futures.
It is virtually traded around the clock, only stop 2 times daily for maintenance. And the good thing is it does not limit me to one trade a day.
When I trade option, every purchase reduces my day trade power. So if I plunged, and failed, I can't plunged again the same day.
Now with E-mini options, it only requires the a margin and I can trade as many time as I like. It is so wonderful. I don't have to perform every time I enter a trade.
Anyway, I think pretty soon we are going to have a better life and I don't have to to go to 6300 Legacy Dr every work day. Cheers
It is virtually traded around the clock, only stop 2 times daily for maintenance. And the good thing is it does not limit me to one trade a day.
When I trade option, every purchase reduces my day trade power. So if I plunged, and failed, I can't plunged again the same day.
Now with E-mini options, it only requires the a margin and I can trade as many time as I like. It is so wonderful. I don't have to perform every time I enter a trade.
Anyway, I think pretty soon we are going to have a better life and I don't have to to go to 6300 Legacy Dr every work day. Cheers
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Sep 9, 2007
Yee and Markkus are going back to Dallas on Sep 9, 2007. I will be alone for 3 weeks. Sometimes it is good to be alone, but knowing our son being so active, I really want to be with my family to help Yee out. Because our next baby is growing pretty fast now and I don't want to upset the pregnancy.
I will be in the Netherlands until Sep 29. Hopefully I can see the end of this project because all the projects that I have been involved for the last few years, they always assigned me to somewhere else before the conclusion.
Again, they are asking me to go to Stockholm for two months after this short term contract, I am still considering it.
I will be in the Netherlands until Sep 29. Hopefully I can see the end of this project because all the projects that I have been involved for the last few years, they always assigned me to somewhere else before the conclusion.
Again, they are asking me to go to Stockholm for two months after this short term contract, I am still considering it.
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